Almost a month since my last entry, and no excuses this
time, I just didn’t have it in me to write an entry here. Each time I
considered it, I wondered what it was that I was saying, or going to say. As I
composed entries in my head, my perfectionist inner critic would shut it
down. Amazingly, during the time I haven’t
been writing here, I’ve been working on a story/novel/something that I’ve had
itching in the back of my brain for a while. It’s a crime novel, kind of noir,
set during World War II in the jazz world of Philadelphia. I’m struggling to
write something every day and torn between freezing at the keyboard or
intellectually vomiting my story all over the place. For inspiration and to help me stop the
perfectionism that usually keeps me from getting things down, I’ve been
re-reading Bird by Bird by Anne Lamott.
It’s a great guide book, not just for writers, but for anyone with a
desire to create and live their life more fully. Yes, I sound very New Age-y when writing
that, but it really is true. Living
fully is something I personally have been working on for a while and it’s
frickin’ HARD.
Elsewhere in my world, C1, my oldest has his school musical
this weekend. He plays Captain Hook in
Peter Pan, and is the only boy in the cast. Oddly, he doesn’t play Mr. Darling,
which I thought was a given, but nope.
He’s excited, but the nerves are really starting to kick in now. The Wif ™ and I are going to both shows,
Saturday night and Sunday afternoon, bringing along various extended family members
each time. My hope is that drama will be something he wants to do more, kind of
find his niche in high school early. I
didn’t until about halfway through my sophomore year, and it would be great if
he has a something he loves right off the bat.
And if he doesn’t? I admit, I’ll
be disappointed, but primarily because I think he’s got a talent. But also, I
loved theater through high school and somewhat after… it would be fun to share
that with him.
What else haven’t I been writing about? I like the idea of
my life as a nerdy Doctor Who fanboy being the lens that this blog sort of
focuses through. What I don’t want is to force feed a Who reference into every
post. For example, this past week I’ve
watched both “The Ribos Operation” and “The Stones of Blood,” probably my two
favorite Key to Time stories. Is there anything new to be said about them? Probably, but I don’t know if I’m the one who
has that new insight. That itself might be an insight I suppose. I’ve had a
long simmering thought to do the great quest of watching all Who, in order,
from the beginning. I will chronicle it here, but like with so many things, the
start is the hardest part. I feel guilty
(yes, bear with the ridiculousness) when I put on something other than “An
Unearthly Child,” thinking that I’ll just end up re-watching whatever I put
on. Feeling guilty for enjoying my favorite
program ever? Yeah that sounds like something I’d do. Next week, though, is the
tenth anniversary of the revived program and I actually plan on a blog post all
about that. I just love the show, unabashedly, unashamedly, and even if not
explicit, it informs a LOT of what I do, and how I think.
That’s what’s been going on in my world(s) lately. Worlds of words, kids, living fully, and
globulin absorbing silicon based life forms.
I guess I have things to say after all.
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